There are two kinds of hope. The poetic hope and the necessary hope. Poetic hope is not disingenuous in and of itself, but it exists in constant danger of of being bastardized. While there exist many occasions of poetic hope in a beautiful and balanced expression, it can often devolve into a show of masturbatory, nonsensical, uninspired, slogan driven drivel. It can be artful, but it can also be turned into a whore, finding its expression in R. Kelly songs or a guidance counselor’s office posters. Poetic hope is abstract and vague, it is imprinted onto the striving individual and expressed loudly for others to here an admire, it is expressed to motivate oneself. It indeed is a pre-requisite of accomplishment, and can also become an avoidance of reality.
Necessary hope remains unseen and consistent. Necessary hope is just that–necessary, it’s vital. It is never displayed in any pre-meditated fashion. One doesn’t put together a speech to express a necessary hope. Necessary hope is expressed in routine and quiet decisions. One’s decision to unromantically and artlessly persist is an expression of necessary hope. To claim hopelessness while simultaneously continuing to pursue a goal, as unexciting as it may be, is a display, as paradoxical as it may be, of necessary hope. I do not find it too out of place to lose hope, and furthermore, the loss of hope is not as tragic as many claim. I think many of us do lose hope, but still recollect it poetically as nostalgia, as something to encourage and hold onto while one has it.
To lose hope does not mean that one exists without it, it means exactly what it says, that one has lost hope–one has misplaced it. It is still there, swelling in places that aren’t easily recognized as such because it is altogether necessary.
The act of willfully choosing to exist is a display of hope, but it’s often mocked as compliance. Those who mock necessary hope are lazy and in error. Necessary hope hides its goal, rather it protects its goal. One puts with with an onslaught of bullshit and injustice in order to keep doors open for his or her loved ones. Necessary hope engages and never acknowledges words that refer to failure (those terms are not recognized because they refer to a framework which has become void), not out of blindness with drunk ambition, but because anything else would be would lead to a dismantling of purpose, a denial of the role one did not chose but has the responsibility to uphold-and that is cowardly, selfish, and naive.
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